Updated: Feb 15, 2021
How are you doing?
Like... how you are really doing?
Are you tolerating your days?
Dreading your days?
Embracing your days?
Are you learning a lot about yourself?
Do you like what you are learning?
For me, some yes some no.
I am still trying to track weekly wins so I don't just let the weeks melt together.
But, my standards for wins is really dropping.
Here is my list of "wins" for this week:
I haven't gained the Covid 20, yet.
I am not worried that our pets have gained the Covid 20.
I'm still married.
I'm not an alcoholic, yet.
I was resourceful and cut my own bangs.
There's been no need to bury any dead bodies in our backyard, yet.
We aren't bankrupt, yet.
I ate all of Lisi's biscotti, again. And loved every bite. No shame.
I took five showers.
I watched one hour of the NFL draft and pretended to be really into it.
I wore a pair of jeans for like 3 hours.
I let myself have a good long cry. Like the ugly kind.
And then I slept 12 hours that night. Heaven.
I showed myself grace for all that I am not doing, all the ways I am not winning, producing, improving, serving, giving, attentive, patient.
We celebrated Anna Kate's 19th birthday, full on.
Here's where I did not win:
Judging all the people who are judging #ironic
Having no compassion for the losers with no compassion #fail
My bangs didn't turn out so well. (Julie I miss you!)
Acting superior to all those who are being critical & intolerant #immature
Barely answering any non-work emails or texts. #lowenergy
Barely moved my body. Just two days instead of the five I had promised myself I would. #lazy
Snapping at my kids #impatient
Ignoring my husband #selfish
Getting my girls to actually read books #grrrrr
Waiting too long to have that ugly cry. i resisted what I was really feeling. The opposite of what I teach my clients. #sillyme.
Tag, you are it.
Where did you win this week?
Where did you not win, but learned more about yourself?
Wait... let me read that again.
That would also be a win wouldn't it?
Learning about yourself...
So maybe everything is a win if awareness is the outcome.
Hmmm....I like that.
I see me in all my humanness.
I see you in all your humanness.
Big hugs you dear human,
You are winning. You really are.
Your awareness coach,