Being honest with yourself about how you feel is just the awareness needed to grow/change.

How are you doing?

Seriously.

Like... how you are really doing?

Are you tolerating your days?

Dreading your days?

Embracing your days? 

Are you learning a lot about yourself? 

Do you like what you are learning? 

For me, some yes some no.

I am still trying to track weekly wins so I don't just let the weeks melt together. 

But, my standards for wins is really dropping.

Here is my list of "wins" for this week:

• I haven't gained the Covid 20, yet.

• I am not worried that our pets have gained the Covid 20.

• I'm still married.

• I'm not an alcoholic, yet.

• I was resourceful and cut my own bangs.

• There's been no need to bury any dead bodies in our backyard, yet.

• We aren't bankrupt, yet.

• I ate all of Lisi's biscotti, again. And loved every bite. No shame. 

• I took five showers. 

• I watched one hour of the NFL draft and pretended to be really into it. 

• I wore a pair of jeans for like 3 hours. 

• I let myself have a good long cry. Like the ugly kind. 

• And then I slept 12 hours that night. Heaven.

• I showed myself grace for all that I am not doing, all the ways I am not winning, producing, improving, serving, giving, attentive, patient. 

• We celebrated Anna Kate's 19th birthday, full on. 

Here's where I did not win:

• Judging all the people who are judging #ironic

• Having no compassion for the losers with no compassion #fail

• My bangs didn't turn out so well. (Julie I miss you!)

• Acting superior to all those who are being critical & intolerant #immature

• Barely answering any non-work emails or texts. #lowenergy

• Barely moved my body. Just two days instead of the five I had promised myself I would. #lazy

• Snapping at my kids #impatient

• Ignoring my husband #selfish

• Getting my girls to actually read books #grrrrr

• Waiting too long to have that ugly cry. i resisted what I was really feeling. The opposite of what I teach my clients.  #sillyme. 

Tag, you are it.

Where did you win this week?

Where did you not win, but learned more about yourself? 

Wait... let me read that again.

That would also be a win wouldn't it?

Learning about yourself... 

So maybe everything is a win if awareness is the outcome. 

Hmmm....I like that. 

I see me in all my humanness.

I see you in all your humanness.

Big hugs you dear human,

You are winning. You really are. 

Your awareness coach,

Kristin